Oh no he didn't.

So I had this conversation with Treson today: (I was fixing lunch trying to figure out what activity to do after we ate). 

Me to Treson: After lunch, how about we clean up and you and Zoe can swiffer the floors?" 

(Yes, they love that). 

T: "That sounds like a good idea." 

Me: "And then maybe you can get your own rag and help mama dust." 

T: "Dust? (with a look of disgust)"

T again: "Dust? Is somebody coming over?"  

OK, so maybe I should start cleaning a little more often.

Geez

I sooooo struggle with saying no. It's not always to please people, but rather I struggle saying no because I honestly think I can do it all. And when I can't, I feel incredibly guilty. I don't even know why. Who cares if I have to back out of something? We've all been there. I am just so good at giving advice in this area. "Take a break." "Give yourself rest." "Learn to say no." Man, that sounds good. I just don't do it myself.  I have to quit MOPS. I love MOPS. I fear I'll talk myself into keeping with it. The problem is that I HAVE to work. I started a business and my family needs it to succeed. That and adding kid #3 keeps my plate more than full. However, MOPS is fun. But, it's work. It requires planning and my presence if I'm in charge. I just can't do it. I'm TOTALLY in denial about this. I just keep thinking, "if someone will just watch the kids, then I can plan." The problem with that is that I already feel like they don't individually get enough of me. I'm so stretched thin. I don't want to get someone to watch them so that I can plan an organization that is just one more thing that gets me away from them. Too much stress gets taken out on the ones you love. It's not fair to them for me to be overloaded and then grumpy at home because I have too much to do.

Note to self: breathe.

Confession

I have really struggled on whether or not to make the following confession public. My sister recommended that I don't. However, if I share it, maybe some of you will come out and fess up, too. I'm a little embarrassed. I'm a little bit in denial. No matter, because it is what it is.

I like the new Miley Cyrus song. 

There, I said it. We watch Disney alot here and the video comes on. It's just kind of catchy. You can jump to every word. It's just so much fun to sing. I'm thinking about iTuning the cd, but I'll never tell if I do.

Pictures

The fam of five.
My favorite photo of me & Zoe.  
So, this would be fun terrorizing at our house. The spray bottle started out as "dusting" with me and turned into "how wet can I get Zoe?" Check out Zoe's defense weapons. Yes, those are bowling pins. She literally had water dripping off her eyelashes.
Zoe grabbed a container of french fries and then sat in a laundry basket of CLEAN clothes to eat them.

Kiley

kiley at 3 weeks. her hair is still brown. her eyes are already losing  that smoky look and are turning quite blue.  she is such her mother's child b/c she is already talking. particularly at treson. he can make her coo like no other. *** all blog postings in lowercase will be short as i am often one handed :)