God is stirring my heart and I can't focus on what I need to be doing. Meaning, work. I started beaumontbuzz.com in Dec of 2006. So many days I have worked late at night and early morning. Here lately when I sit at the computer to drum up something creative for my business, I go blank. Mostly because my desire for what I'm doing is a bit numb. I know that it is common for one's passion for their work to fade and then be revitalized from time to time. I'm in the fade stage...
All day long, I'm thinking about God. That sounds funny. Maybe I should say that all day long, I'm thinking about God's purposes and where He is working. It's just that I feel like He is leading me in a new direction, but my heart is still pondering what that direction is. As a result, I'm becoming a bit obsessed for meditating on His word, praying and just talking about the things of God. Somehow I'm sure this isn't a bad thing. Except that I have to work. Who doesn't? The desires of the heart and the responsibilities of the day are combating. My husband goes through this alot. I often get frustrated with his struggle for maintaining earthly responsibilities while pursuing spiritual responsibilities. That sounds terrible. Probably needs further explanation. Trey feels called and has the desire to work in full time ministry. But, does not necessarily feel called to be a pastor of any sort. So what else is there? Is it just being a witness or ministering to those around us? Maybe. Is it being paid to work in ministry? Maybe. It's the "maybe" that frustrates me. I just want to know! Anyway, all that to say, is that I can finally relate to him in this area. It's exactly what I'm going through.
Since you have stumbled across this blog and got suckered into reading :), please pray for me. I need God's help in placing proper focus on Him and the responsibilities He's given me. I don't think there is a "balance" needed because I don't believe it is Biblical to equally focus on God versus other things. He should be way up there on the totem pole. But, I do have to properly care for the things He has placed in my hands (business, family, etc). Please pray for direction and conviction for what God should have me pursue. (Thanks :) ).
2 comments:
I totally understand. I will be praying for you. God knows what He has for you, His timing is perfect.
Girl, I'm so glad I clicked on here today. I'm sorry I didn't read it sooner. I've been in a bloggy mood this week and have been trying to catch up on all of my favorite blogs. I will definitely be praying for you. I deal with this ALL OF THE TIME! My husband thinks I'm crazy because I'm always wanting something new fresh and exciting. I don't like being in a rut.
I can think of many things I want to do but unfortunately my passion doesn't pay the bills.
Let's plan to do lunch one day week after next (my treat). This week is nuts with Chocolate Affair Tuesday, I'm going to Girl's Night Out in Houston on Thursday, then I fly to New York City on Friday!
Chocolate Affair is really coming together. The ladies from BISD have gone all out on decorations. We may not have a ton of chocolate but it will be nice. I'm still going to beg you for chocolate however I don't want you to feel overwhelmed by the 1500 sample number I gave you. We talked at the
meeting Thursday and decided that 1000 is a more fair number. I would
even say 800 could be good. Barbara Bon Bon always brings about 500 samples and when she's out she's out. No biggie.
OK, this is way too long for a blog comment. YIKES!! Sorry!
Paula G. <><
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